My life is a problem with too many constraints
Too few unknowns and too many complaints.
When A = B and B = C,
the solution is simple and easy to see
But A is the amount of time I require
to meet B, the state of mental health I desire
Where C is the person my spouse fell in love with
But A can’t equal C, so I’m who he’s fed up with.
Four hours of small talk will be my undoing
“But if limits are set, it’s just not worth pursuing…”
And so A’s less than four, but no limits exist
Time with in-laws is null, invitations dismissed
He wants to go now, to make life organic
But if plans are uprooted, then I start to panic
This task must be done, but it won’t be done now
But sure, we’ll go out, and I’ll manage somehow
This is fine! This is fine! Stress reaches climax
We’re out and you’re absent, why can’t you relax?
The shutdown’s impending, the solution is nil
zero words, zero questions, zero feelings to still.
But to meet all his needs, the answer is two
two eyes, two hugs, and two walls to ram through
I need some silence and he needs some words
Now what shall we do? Cut the baby in thirds?
You won’t get what you want if you do not express it
But it’s a black box unknown, he wants me to guess it
“I don’t want coffee now.” …So that’s incorrect…
“Well just figure it out, use your ‘vast intellect’…”
“Fine, I’ll say what I want, in fact I’ll demand it!”
There’s no middle ground here? I don’t understand it!
Emotionally vacant is how he perceives me
But when I show affection, he doesn’t believe me!
A beating heart in my chest he says is unlikely
but when I show love, he says it’s unlike me!
“You work way too much.”
He wants me to play
Then help me with work
… or fine, run away.
My life is problem. No solution exists.
It’s overdefined, so depression persists.